This week has been draining, and I’m not really sure why.
I just got to Friday afternoon and was feeling pretty awful physically, so I came home and just sat for the evening. I focused on getting to 10 pm so I could sleep. Feel so much better this morning.
I know I’m pushing myself right now, both food wise and exercise wise, trying to break a stall in the weight loss. Really focusing on eating all the right things, in the right proportion, with the right ingredients.
My Saturday mornings are a nice routine of swimming, Farmers’ Market, coffee and friends.
I missed it a bit last week with the Habitat build effort, but back into routine today.
I shouldn’t be swimming, I should be doing cardio and weights, but yesterday’s exhaustion tells me I’ve got to take it easy. Which doesn’t mean doing nothing, just doing something less stressful.
I was so burnt out yesterday I didn’t even want to deal with my Blackberry when it bleeped. If it did bleep, I just glanced to see if it was the kids, or a friends, if it was work or more general social – I ignored it.
I didn’t even really spend anytime on social media, which is weird for me.
I’m searching for something right now, and I don’t know what it is.
Often when I feel this out of sorts and lost, puttering in the house, cooking, cleaning etc, will bring me joy and satisfaction of a job well accomplished. But these things just irritate me right now.
Not sure what the problem is. Just know there’s a problem and I’ve got to work through it.
I think there’s a physical-mental connection thing happening here and I haven’t resolved it, enough, to be comfortable and clear on the journey.
Swimming will help, it’s meditative for me.
I’ll keep you posted!
